(Posted on Instagram on 4 Nov 2019)
What made you go to the gym?”
“I had an exam coming up at that time.”
The lethargy brought by the sedentary lifestyle finally took its toll on me as I struggled to juggle work and reviewing because I was always so sluggish.
For context, I must say that I never had a good relationship with food. It was either I binged, or I barely ate for months at a time. Don’t get me started with exercise. I knew the benefits, but I always felt helpless. My body cried out for help through various ailments like cysts on my throat, PCOS, hyperacidity, etc. I resorted to endless excuses, nonetheless.
It’s been around two months since I signed up for a gym membership with a trainer, and I realized that the helplessness I felt stemmed from the fact that exercise is lightyears away from my comfort zone because I’m not the most coordinated person. I hated the feeling brought by learning so slowly. I get what I’m supposed to do, theoretically, but I hated that I couldn’t execute the tasks immediately, so I avoided it as much as I could. I wanted immediate gratification. I hated that my feet couldn’t keep up with my standards of how quickly I should learn.
Have I mastered all the exercises? I’ve barely scratched the surface. Growth entails a lot of discomfort, and the past two months challenged me to persevere in the seemingly mundane despite the pain. I underestimated the psychological benefits of exercise, thinking that results are mostly physical in nature, and it has been a humbling experience.
Accountability does wonders in growth, and every peso has been worth it. Had I decided to do things on my own, I probably would have given up at the end of Day 1 because of the “helpless” feeling. Thank you, Coach Daniel, for pushing me to go beyond my perceived capabilities. Your passion for fitness is contagious. Thank you for showing me that a healthy lifestyle is sustainable once I disregard my excuses. I know you’ll continue to broaden your reach given your knowledge, skills, grit, and compassion.